ZOMG TIRED

I got up at 8:45 this morning. It is now 11:13 pm. All the hours between then and now have been filled with moving fun.If by fun, you mean torture. If by torture, you mean mind-numbing excruciating pain. If by... well, I'll stop there.I had forgotten how much I hate moving. It's been four years since I've moved anywhere, and time truly does dull the memory. But hey, everything I own is now under one roof. A new roof, btw. That got done on Thursday and Friday, although the dumpster is still out front til Monday. But roof = new, so rain = not so depressing anymore. To say the day did not go smoothly would be an understatement. Scott had trouble getting the truck, and we were an hour late getting started. We'd reserved a dolly, but they didn't have one so we had to go buy one at Lowe's. We got back to the apartment to discover that the freight elevator was broken. We took small stuff down the other elevator during the two hours it took them to get that fixed, and then loaded the rest of my stuff. It took us til 4 pm to load all my stuff in the truck; it took us 45 minutes to unload it all at the house. I am still not sure how that's possible. Then we went back to the apartment to get Scott's stuff loaded, and it started to sprinkle. Luckily, the actual rain went north of us, but for a few minutes we were panicking. Finally, we got his stuff loaded, and I put the last load of my stuff in the car and headed for home. It's very weird to think that this is home now, and that the Roosevelt is just someplace I used to live.It occurred to me while I was eating my dinner that this is the first time I've lived in a house since I was 17. I'm 31 and a half. That's a lot of apartment living.I've got loads of unpacking to do, and so much shopping - my to-do lists have their own lists at this point - but of course I'm not going to get any of that done this week. I have to go to Oregon for work :( Oh, well, I can always shop online :) (Note for to-do list: fix mailbox so that postal worker will have place to put online shopping purchases) I have managed to get my bed put together and made up, and now I shall go face-plant into it. I would love to take a shower first, but that would require me to hang the shower curtain rod, and I have passed the point in which I should be handling power tools.So now I go sleep. Ttyl.

Ugh. Part Two.

Seriously, is it Friday?No?So you know your day is going well when your first thought upon waking is "Is there any way I can get away with calling in sick today?" Now, I'm not sick. I'm tired. I need more sleep, and I need to have all my belongings in one place, and that place needs to be my new house, and it would be nice if I had furniture, like a couch or something, and everything neatly put away. These are things I need. These are things I cannot have right now, and that sucks. I keep telling myself, soon. It will all be settled again soon. Actually, my biggest problem today is one of the total head-desk variety. I forgot to put on deodorant. And unlike most weeks when I'm onsite, I can't just run back up to my room and fix it - I'm onsite in Atlanta this week, and home is a 30-45 minute drive each way. So I'm smelly girl today, yay.

Second Annual Valentine's Day Music Fest

I liked the idea that I had last year so much that I thought I'd do it again! Of course, last year I shared 30 songs with you and this year I came up with 8, but hey! I'm busy! :D Oddly enough, I'm working for the exact same client this year that I did last year, so it's like deja vu in a way. Just thought I'd share that.Anyway, here are some love songs, and not-so-love songs, for you for this Valentine's Day!All The Fish In The Sea Are Stupid Sluts Anyway - Big Japan: Oh how I wish we were the kissing kind of fish, cuz you are always on my mind! But I feel like a fool waitin' round for you, I must just be the sucker kind. I love this song a)for the title, b) for the hoppy little tune even though the lyrics are a bit sad, and c)because anyone who tells you there's plenty of fish in the sea ought to have to walk the plank.A History of Lovers - Calexico & Iron&Wine:Coddle some men, they'll remember you bitterly. Fuck 'em, they'll come back for more. I asked my Louise would she leave and so cripple me. Then came a knock at the door. A lollapolooza of a song, once again disguising the not-so-happy ending. Listen to the horn section, love it!The Last High - The Dandy Warhols:I am alone but adored by a hundred thousand more. Then I said when you were the last. And I have known love like a whore from at least ten thousand more. Then I swore when you were the last. Dandy Warhols for President! Tiny Vessels - Death Cab for Cutie:This is the moment that you know, that you told her that you loved her but you don't.No matter how many times I listen to this song, and I listen to it a lot, that first line never fails to punch me in the gut. It's one of the reasons I'm very careful about who I say those words to - it's something you can't take back without crushing someone.Under the Surface - Marit Larsen:When suddenly I’m back at the core, thinking of her who had you before. Were you as good, as good as we are? Do you remember? I could quote the whole song, actually. knightette gave this one to me, and I have to admit, I dismissed it the first couple of times through, til I really listened to the words. I so connect with the idea of not trusting something good, of waiting for the other shoe to drop, and the reality of not being someone's first love, of knowing that the person you're with already found the person they wanted to spend the rest of their life with and it didn't work out. Say that you love me, say that it’s true, I know that I want to believe you. But somehow silence speaks louder than words, I’m worried she’s still on your mind.Coffee, Tea, and Sympathy - Robbie Williams:Don’t feel small when I don’t call - if I could talk I’d tell you. If I ever did, don’t answer, kid - I’ve only lies to sell you. I’ll be your stranger (I don’t want your love). If you’re in need (It’s not your love that I need). First off, any song that actually has the phrase 'walk of shame' in it? LOVE. This song makes me smile no matter how bad of a mood I'm in, because it's playful and probably more honest than I'd like to think about. And it's a different view, from the bad boy who knows he's the bad boy.I Don't Fall In Love So Easy - Trisha Yearwood:I don't give my heart to just anyone, I don't even know how to do it. I don't give my hand to just any man, I don't wanna put myself through it. Okay, so yes, it's the requisite country song. But this one's here for a reason. I've always thought this song describes perfectly how I feel about falling in love - it's not an overnight thing. I've never understood the 'love at first sight' phenomenon, I don't get why people run off and get married when they've just met. So I like this song, because it gets that, and it also gives you just that bit of hope, that glimpse into what it feels like to move over that edge and let someone into your life.Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol:If I lay here... if I just lay here... Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I am a sucker for a good epic song - the heartswell song, if you will. This one has grabbed me since I saw it on Grey's Anatomy, and if part of that is a love for the Izzie/Denny, then so be it. :D Also, I love the line about finding your own grace. Okay, and bonus song, because by now you've probably all heard Chasing Cars, since it's all over the radio lately: Shut Your Eyes - Snow Patrol:And when the worrying starts to hurt and the world feels like graves of dirt, just close your eyes until you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will... shut your eyes and sing to me. If any of the links die, just let me know and I'll re-do them.Much love,Beth

Is it Friday yet?

Ugh. Long, long day. First off, I'm working at a client site in Atlanta this week, when I was supposed to be working on a remote project. The upside is that I'm at home, so I can do stuff in the evenings, but the downside is that I have to deal with Atlanta traffic, which can mean taking up to two hours to drive what should take twenty minutes.Then to top that off, I go to air up my tire, which has looked a bit low all weekend, and discovered that there's a nail in my tire. So I then got to spend close to three hours waiting at Pep Boys and to shell out close to $300 on a pair of new tires. Fun, fun.So now I'm home, and in my jammies, and watching a bit of tv before I have to go do more moving stuff. So not getting all the things I meant to do done tonight. C'est la vie.

It's Official

I am a homeowner.We had the walk-through this morning, and the closing started at 11:15am and was done by noon! I thought it would take ages, but wow did it ever not! And I didn't have to pay a cent over my final closing cost estimate, which was a relief. So I've spent the whole afternoon in my house, making up the aerobeds so that namaste_atlanta and I can have our sleep-over tonight, and making rudimentary efforts at cleaning. We're having a picnic here tonight to celebrate, Scott & Jon are bringing the food and wine and we're going to sit around my empty house. Ah, good times!

Birthday Greetings

Happy birthday, sparktastic! Hope it's a great one!

30 True Things

I'm not usually much for self-help books, but a friend sent a link to this one on Amazon, and I like the table of contents. Maybe one day I'll actually read the book! :DToo Soon Old, Too Late Smart: Thirty True Things You Need to Know Now by Gordon Livingston1. If the map doesn't agree with the ground, the map is wrong.2. We are what we do.3. It is difficult to remove by logic an idea not placed there by logic in the first place.4. The statute of limitations has expired on most of our childhood traumas.5. Any relationship is under the control of the person who cares the least.6. Feelings follow behavior.7. Be bold, and mighty forces will come to your aid.8. The perfect is the enemy of the good.9. Life's two most important questions are "Why?" and "Why not?" The trick is knowing which one to ask.10. Our greatest strengths are our greatest weaknesses.11. The most secure prisons are those we construct for ourselves.12. The problems of the elderly are frequently serious but seldom interesting.13. Happiness is the ultimate risk.14. True love is the apple of Eden.15. Only bad things happen quickly.16. Not all who wander are lost.17. Unrequited love is painful but not romantic.18. There is nothing more pointless, or common, than doing the same thing and expecting different results.19. We flee from the truth in vain.20. It's a poor idea to lie to oneself.21. We are all prone to the myth of the perfect stranger.22. Love is never lost, not even in death.23. Nobody likes to be told what to do.24. The major advantage of illness is that it provides relief from responsibility.25. We are afraid of the wrong things.26. Parents have a limited ability to shape children's behavior, except for the worse.27. The only real paradises are those we have lost.28. Of all the forms of courage, the ability to laugh is the most profoundly therapeutic.29. Mental health requires freedom of choice.30. Forgiveness is a form of letting go, but they are not the same thing.